Exhaustion

Gracie
Originally uploaded by Willyjeen.

I don't know quite what it is lately, but I’m tired.

I seem to be pretty much tired of everything in everyway.

It’s like as if I’ve just run out of gas, like I need a refill.
I need to feel that zest for life that, that drive to do things and build stuff.
In this current state motivation and creativity have given way to apathy and lethargy.

I think it’s a combination of many things, knowing where things are now, and knowing where things are going. Essentially it’s like one of those nights where you’re out till 5am and you’re feeling fine, until you realize the time, and then suddenly shut down.

Exhaustion is far beyond that of a physical ailment, but emotional as well. Often times we burn up so much energy on our introspection that we find a lack of energy for anything else.

I need more than sleep to feel rested,
I need more than caffeine to feel awake.

(I suppose working 10am till 9pm isn’t helping either, hehehe).