Such A Fucking Idiot...

I am such a fucking idiot...

here i am, ripping my self apart and disowning my worthless heart

but in the end it was all bullshit.

i thought she left me for all these reasons, but it turns out she left me for this one.

you know what the fucked up part of this is? i know the guy in the picture, so to speak. a while before our Valentine's Day Trip she talked to me about her friend and his problems with dating the wrong kind of girl. when i told her that it could be him putting off the "stink of desperation" she became offended and went on the defensive. i should have known then... i mean why wouldn't she get defensive? i was insulting her new boyfriend.

a week after we broke up i sent a letter to make sure she was OK and she bit my head off. she made me feel like shit, blaming me, laying how everything was my fault. turns out her treating me like shit was just a means to clear me out of the way. (funny, it's the same tactic my last ex-girlfriend used.)



you could have just been honest instead of making me feel ashamed of who i am...
i can't believe i actually cried over you




Exile